Hii,
FINALLY!! I have only 3 more weeks of school which means only 12 more days. I know what you are probably thinking: 3 x 5 isn't 12, but you see it is 12 more days because my school finishes on thursday, and about a week before the last day of school there is going to be a conference thingy where my parents have to come and see how horrible I did during school. And the last day isn't really a full day it is basically just signing yearbooks and listening to a very boring speech from the director of the school. During the summer my family and I are going to Croatia. I love the sea and everything in Croatia but the thing is that we are going with my mum's friend from collage I think. This is going to be pretty awkward. You see my mum's friend has a kid. Not awkward yet! Since my mum and her friend met in collage they have been around MY whole life. It would be weird if the wouldn't have you know. So the kid is about the same age as I am, so we were little kids running around naked and taking baths together and stuff. It didn't really bother me that I was running around naked when I was 3 or something. And there is another thing. There is a picture my mum took of my brother that kid and me in the bath together. This picture is hung on the family collage. This family collage has a lot of pictures from when I was a kid. Now that you know that you can imagine how awkward that is. Even when I see him I think of that picture and remember the awkwardness that I was naked in a bath with a stranger and my brother. Oh and I forgot to mention that the kid was a boy!!! I don't really mind about my brother but that kid who happens to be a boy the same age as I am I CARE ABOUT THAT!! AND IT IS VERY AWKWARD!! Anyways for the rest of the summer I probably going to be locked up in the house watching some movie and being antisocial just as I am usually. Scrolling through instagram and tumblr and see other people having a great time with their friends. Which now I have none of. I mean I have no friends. I get along with basically everyone in school but I wouldn't call anybody there my friend.
Another thing I forgot to mention is that I am pretty good at acting. Not to brag or anything but acted as if I was having a panic attack to my family and they believed it. I thought that if I have a panic attack they maybe won't let me go to school so I can recover but no that part of my plan failed. Stupid me. My parents still don't know and I am really guilty, I don't want to see that terrified expression on my mum's face again. But I also feel a bit proud that I could act as if I really had a panic attack. I also know that it is not something to joke about because these things are serious and can get bad and I promise that I won't do it again. I AM SORRY!!!!!! You know how everyone has that thing they are good at? My brother is good with computers and he is a very good athlete. My mum has ambition and can do anything if she wants to do it. I on the other hand have only one thing. Acting. That's all. But there is a bad thing. I am introvert with absolute no interest in socializing with people or going to a party and dancing my butt of. I am not outgoing, at least that is what people think when I am at school. I am the quiet girl who sits in the back of the class, is chubby and has no friends. At home I am the one that is really myself. This summer there is this camp for people that want to act. The thing is it is a bit expensive and my family isn't having the best time with money right now. I thought that maybe if I go to that camp I can start of with a new clean page of who I am to the public. Maybe I can be more of the person I am at home, the crazy, weird, caring and maybe fun person. Oh God that sounds so cheesy and like everyone else in my school, but I promise you that I won't be like any of them. I am so different from them but I can't exactly put it into other words that make sense.
Wow ok that was long! If you made it until here can you please comment or somehow show me that you actually came until here. PLEASE!! You can comment anything you like just don't be rude. That's all for now!!!
Bye,
MaSh
